I am a Christian with a past…I guess we all have a past, and more than likely, mine isn’t much different than most. Four sisters and an older brother enhanced the broken home I grew up in; I fell right in the middle. My upbringing had plenty of love, but there was little if no mention of Jesus. That being said, somehow we considered ourselves a Christian family.
I was born in the mid sixties and made my way through the seventies. The eighties were my autopilot years, and my flesh was in control of my actions. All I will say about that is, it is not a good place to be! My journey took an upswing when I married my wonderful wife Stephanie in 1990…she is my best friend.
As strange as it may seem, Stephanie and I did not fully know each others beliefs when we married. In truth, we were both a bit lost when it came to a spiritual connection to God. The power of this in our relationship was the yearning we both had to gain a relationship with the All Mighty. It is a process that has allowed us to grow in faith together…and that has been powerful!
We were given the gift of three precious souls to care for, Dalton, Dylan and my late daughter Angelica (my Angel Girl) who ascended to the heavens on June 29, 2010. She is my inspiration for this online journal. Her passing has me looking at my journey from a different perspective, and the need to share it has risen to the surface.
So, who am I to teach, instruct, witness, or even give these written words for you to consume? My answer…I am just me with my own history of experience. My journey which encompasses all of my mistakes, failures, triumphs and tragedy enlighten my perspective and it is mine to share. It is my hope there is something in my sharing that strikes your spirit with reflection and discovery in your own walk. In truth, your journey has its own account of events that have shaped your point of view, and I have no doubt that you have something to teach, instruct and witness to as well. And so I write…
In loving memory of Angelica Rae…my Angel Girl
Video Link: Heaven’s Precious Angel
My Spiritual Walk with God 
you have my heartfelt sympathy. as one who has suffered the loss of four close family members in the past decade, I can relate on some levels. May God continue to strengthen you as you press forward in his will for your life.
Thanks Ron…I appreciate the kind words.
God bless,
Michael
Thanks for the “like” on my blog. The loss of a child really does change your perspective on just about everything, doesn’t it? I’ve added you to the list of blogs I follow.
Your daughter was beautiful, by the way.
Lindsey, thanks for stopping by. There is no doubt that life is now viewed from a different vantage point that stresses the importance of simple things.
Thanks again and God bless,
Michael
Michael, thank you so much for stopping by and reading my poem. Your grief resonates with me, and I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for having the strength to be open about it and to share your experiences.
Thank you April for the kind words!
God bless,
Michael
Thank you for sharing your grief and your journey through it. Your post on my blog brought me here and I know it was for a reason. Many thanks.
Thank you for the follow-up visit. The reasons may be far and wide, so I hope you find solace through your visit for what ever may be on your heart or just simple reflection.
God bless,
Michael
Thanks for reading my posts about loss-though different journeys–we felt the losses deeply, and still do. So sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter, and so glad that God is good. God bless you! Liz May
Thank you Liz…our own journeys strengthen us as we turn to the Lord for comfort and guidance.
God bless,
Michael
I look forward to reading more of your posts. Thank you for commenting on mine as we share this journey.
A journey not of our choosing, but one we seek purpose in.
Thanks and God bless,
Michael
Hi Michael, I just found your site through “SPTP2011.” I am so sorry about your daughter. I can not imagine that kind of loss. I appreciate your blog posts and will be stopping back to share your journey, praying His peace for you and your family.
Thank you Drusilla…God bless.
Michael, I am so sorry for your family’s loss. Your daughter is so beautiful, I can’t even imagine how your family is dealing with this, and am sending prayers up for all of you! Blessings!
Thank you Rebecca. My prayers are with you and your family to bring you through the loss of your precious Vincent. The Lord will get us through…
God bless,
Michael
Thank you for your kind comments on my blog Michael. I will be thinking of you and your dear Angelica….
Blessings to you, your family and your dear Cullen.
God bless,
Michael
Oh my Lord…..your precious daughter…..there are no words that I can possibly say…but…I will just keep you in prayer for continued comfort and strength. In all my suffering I have found my help from our Father God and recently in blogging which helps me to keep my mind on the Lord…..I pray you have too. God bless you!
Thank you Tanya for your heartfelt words. Father God, His Son and the constant guide of the Spirit is who consoles, encourages, comforts and leads me through the valleys of my journey…and, there is none more witnessing than the loss of my dear Angel Girl.
God bless,
Michael
I appreciate your comment on my blog, this journey can be very lonely…your daughter is beautiful …you know there are no words to ease you pain. I pray you and all parents who have lost a child can find some comfort in prayer to our Lord God.
Your sudden loss exposes a grief that takes us all to the edge of our spirit. I will pray for your family as you settle into the new perspective you find yourself in.
God bless,
Michael
Thank you, Michael, for stopping by and reading my post. My thoughts are with you. As the mom of 15 and 13 year-old boys, I finally beganto understand what my mom must have felt when my brother passed away three weeks shy of his 22nd birthday–24 years after the fact. My heart goes out to you and your family.
Thank you Joanna!
God bless,
Michael
You’re welcome and same to you, Michael. 🙂
Michael
I just watched your video of all those wonderful memories of your beautiful daughter. Even as my eyes filled with tears, I was smiling at how happy she seemed. You are right about her light shining out. I wish there were a way to take away the pain of this loss but I know that you carry Angelica’s love with you through all of these difficult times. Peace to you and your family
Thank you so much Cindy! It is a true testimony that my Angels’ light shines. She was truly a happy soul as she graced us with her joy.
God bless, always!
Michael
I truly believe that the deepest sorrow of one’s life is to lose a child. We all grieve for losses we have endured but the loss of a child to me must be the most difficult.
May God continue to bless you with your memories of Angel ! Diane
Thank you Diane! It is through this deep sorrow that I have gained a closer relationship with the Lord.
God bless, Michael
I hate that I’ve joint this fraternity with you, Brother, but since we have, I’m continually amazed by God’s grace, mercy and power. Thanks for stopping by Holy Ghost Bumps. We’ll keep you and your family in our prayers. Be blessed…
Thank you Guy! God’s love and grace is my comfort through my journey.
God bless,
Michael
That was supposed to say *joined…lol.
I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot even begin to imagine the loss of a child.
Thank you for your kind words!
God bless, Michael
I have my own blog, Learning to Walk in Truth. I am in the process of changing from blogger to wordpress and thought I would google some blogs written by others to get some ideas, when I stumbled across your site. I am so sorry about your loss of your daughter. For her to die is gain, but I cannot imagine the heartbreak of having to say “bye” to my child. Continue to write. Writing can be healing. It is healing for me, because it allows me to express my thoughts, out loud so to speak. Even when no one else is listening or responding, I know that God hears me.
Thanks Patsy! I started writing right after I lost my Angel girl…it gives my thoughts a place to go. I do not write as much…but write when it am lead.
Thank you again, God bless,
Michael