I have discovered this principle of life – that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. (Rom 7:21) …Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin. (Rom 7:25)
Growing up, I was somewhat of a wild child. I wasn’t evil in my intentions, but my sinful nature was defiantly in charge of the decision process. In some cases, I was able to steer clear of its hidden agenda, but the percentages weighed highly on the success of its destructive nature. At this point in my journey, my sinful nature was the free spirit that ruled my actions.
As I began to mature, I viewed life from a different perspective; the awareness of my sinful nature and its destruction began to take shape. It was at this time when struggle set in. This struggle consisted of the ongoing conscious knowledge of this inner transgression and whether to follow it or not. Sad to say, although lower, the percentages still weighed in favor of the self-diluted indulgence of sin.
My journey continued in this manner for miles, battling the inner dialog of should I or shouldn’t I. It became a constant conversation of how to step on the road that led to peace in this matter. I would lay awake at night thinking to myself why did I say, do, or act out the way in which left me in this desperate state. I was at a loss and could not find my way.
I have found reverence in the opening passage. The truth is my sinful nature is part of who I am. I cannot remove it or make it go away. It will continue to rear up thoughts and suggestions as to what and how I do things. It is a very cunning enemy that trickles in at a moments notice without warning. This truth is what enslaves me to sin. It is also what beckons me to lean on Christ Jesus to diminish its power of persuasion.
The Holy Spirit also dwells within me and is the advocate with the power to keep my sinful nature in check. As I continue along this path, I find the more I rely on this truth, it lessens the ability my sinful nature has to steer my thoughts. This in turn strengthens my relationship with the Holy Spirit, allowing for greater victories in this ongoing battle.
I pray that I continue to strengthen the relationship I have in Christ through the Holy Spirit and He continues to deliver my ever-growing victories against my sinful nature, as I am a slave to sin.
May God bless you and give you Grace.